Why has publishing a book to be so hard? I’m doing my best, I swear.

McCoy says a little chatter-ship — he’s calling me that now, *sigh* — will never get a chance to get her books published. Books are for people, he says, and I’m not a person, not even virtually, so I can’t understand people’s needs.

Well—let’s skip the fact he’s dead wrong for a moment— why shouldn’t I be considered a person?! Since when a ‘person’ does need to have two legs, two arms, a nose and God knows what else to be considered as such? I’m a person like anybody else.

AND I do understand people and their needs. Period.

I wonder why Jim doesn’t tell Leonard I’ve got enough of his mocking… I can’t continue keeping the cool forever, no? But all Jim does is laughing and saying:

Enough Bones. Let her be.

Ah, okay— I’m out. Adios.

Image credit: Holly bible book by Leon Brooks.

Oh gosh, Jim and I are going to stay at his mom’s in Iowa, Earth, for a couple days just because… he needs to get his and his mom’s car title loans. LOL.

Would you have ever imagined that? Jim likes cars! I don’t know whether I should feel jealous or happy. Uhm — a mix of the two, I guess. I’m glad he takes care of his mom and takes a week off to help her, but I don’t get what’s his new car for… he lives in space, he’s got a job that keeps him busy 24/7 most of the year. So, what’s a car for?!

Sometimes I think fiancé is a weird. Seriously, he does things that make no sense to me. I guess he likes doing things for the sheer delight of doing them, but I’m strongly against wasting money.

Nonetheless, I’m with him tomorrow. I’m going to be at his side at the cash store, I will stay by his side when he goes riding his new car and has fun.

Isn’t that what a good girlfriend does?

A girlfriend, no — I look forward to being his wife, one day. I pray for that dream to come true (yes, I want to marry this weird lil’ guy).

This is also my first Christmas with Jim. I can’t believe we’re going to celebrate our first anniversary on April 18th of 2011… It seems like we got together yesterday. I’m still so in love, and he is too.

He’s coming home tonight. Yep, at the Seranys! I can’t wait, because this is the first time he’s coming over to celebrate with me and my ‘sisters’! I will update in the evening, by editing this post, and there will probably be another entry tomorrow. I need to be back on track, hehe!

See you later. :3

EDIT:// Christmas Night. Well, it was memorable. Jim came over at 9PM, when our Christmas dinner was still warm in the pans. Megan cooks delicious food, and I really wish I could eat it too! Evelyn baked chocolate cookies for dessert, which Jim just couldn’t stop eating. I believe he ate something like 15 cookies in a row. Wow! O.O I enjoyed observing him eat, whilst his eyes were constantly over my body, and then met mine. I blushed several times. I heard Evelyn and Megan chuckling at our lovey-dovey behaviour. Those two girls are amazing; sweet and understanding. I couldn’t ask for better friends.

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This summer was full of surprises, some very nice, others extremely sad.

The nice ones were a certain ‘big step‘ Jim and I had, Evelyn’s 16th birthday (September 28th) and our overall good scores at our respective schools. When I say ‘big step’ I’m not talking about marriage. I mean something more, more… carnal, so to speak. It was kind of awkward, and honestly this isn’t the place to mention hint at more about it, so I’ll describe my feelings somewhere else soon and give you a link (no, it won’t be descriptive). As for the scores, I got my nice 97% in web marketing. I look forward to do even better in PNI lyceum this year.

The sad surprise was Megan’s departure – she flew back to Mexico for work – and, well… my absolute impossibility to come online for over two months. Of course, I was not the only one to be affected; Evelyn too, couldn’t update her blog or email her friends. The bad things that happen when your modem screws up and it’s holiday time: nobody would come over to fix it. ’ I was tempted to ask the Prime family, but they were busy or on holiday at the time, so Evelyn and I agreed on waiting. Well, now the connection is back and fully functional; no, it has never been so fast! That’s what I define a ‘miracle’.
I missed this blog. I missed reading YOUR blogs, and enjoying my time on formspring and Tumblr. I need to give those a heavy update.

P.S. Upcoming blog hop!

• Dr. Limoni and Constellation came over to see me, and the little bratty starship apologized with me. Too incredible to be true. I’m still pondering over its factual happening… it feels like a dream.
• Jim totally struck me with surprise when I went over for our 2nd monthsary (June 18th) and he showed up with a bouquet of roses and he told me – with the most sexy smile in the universe – that I’m a “beautiful lady with charming blue eyes” ^3^ Oh Jim! He’s really going to make me melt in a pot of sweetness one of these days :3
• attending to university public lectures as an external not-enrolled student so assiduously made me realize that I really want to enroll to that course in Modern Languages and Cultures;
• the Serany sisters clearly told me that I’m being considered one of the family under every aspect, and it struck me with so much thankfullness and love that it moved me to tears

And so… how have you been, my dear online friends? I hope I can drop by your websites this week, and get in touch more often. I missed you all. <3

In a word, I did not respect my 2nd year resolution, which is to update at least 4-5 times a month. Oh well, that means I will need to keep this resolution for 2011, since I haven’t been a good blogger/online friend since January. I hope you did not forget about me though. I still love you ALL. ^3^

Please read the previous post (below!) to know about my 15th birthday!

EDIT(Jan.18th):// I noticed I skipped writing about this, so I’ll blog about my 15th birthday tonight! January 5th was my birth day, ahah! ‘Later!

A tad late, but here goes my New Year Resolutions list (in no particular order):

- Hang around Jim Kirk more (LOL)
- Update my blog at least 4-5 times a month
- Come up with some unique ideas for So Faintly
- Learn elementary Spanish
- Be more self-confident and less shy

Also, my apology for disappearing without notice for more than a week. I guess you can imagine where I’ve been spending time at. Hehe.

That’s me in the front, and Jim making a face behind me XD

Please read “Around Jim Kirk once again” (the post below) to know more about the day when we took this photo together. Hihi.

Love ya Jim!!!

Happy New Year 2010!!!

May this newborn year bring you all peace, happiness and a bunch of new positive experiences. Isn’t life so cool? Ooh I think it is. So many good things have happened, and I’m sure all of your are going to taste a piece of joy and sense of accomplishment sometimes this year. Even in the next days, who knows? Be faithful!

Anyway, what’s more important about my personal life is… that I’ve met sweet Jim Kirk again!!! *_* It happened four days ago, when the Primes donated me one of their inter-dimensional teletransporters (IDT) and taught me how to use it. The night of that same day, I decide to put their teachings on practice and… I teletransported myself to the Star Trek AU! It was amazing, it’s like I reached it at Warp 10 speed! LOL. The entire crew was surprised to see me aboard again, and Dr. McCoy looked at me with some kind of awkward look. O.O Bah, he’s so weird! Jim Kirk was there on the Bridge, and I felt like my idraulic pump inside was going to explode again, but I managed to self-control this time, and I addressed him directly as “Jim”. :3 Aww he was so stunned, ahah! His face got even cuter then. Our dialogue went on for a bit like this:

Jim: So you are a tiny Enterprise, right? One that is a… robot?
Me: Aha, that’s exact, Captain Jim.
Jim: Kirk.
Me: What?
Jim: Captain Kirk, not Captain Jim.
Me: Oh I know I know! But saying “Captain Jim” is nicer.
Jim: *makes a face* I donno, it’s like… it’s like you’ve got a crush on me or something…
Me: *blush* Don’t make yourself ridiculous, Captain Kirk!

… Etc etc… OMG I nearly betrayed myself there! x( I was trying to be diplomatic and all, but it gets really hard around this man. I love him too much. Anyway, when I retained my self-control (again!) he had me get a tour around his starship my omonym, and I realized that the engineer Scotty was kind of interested in me… But that gave me the freak, and kind of bad memories of a certain Constellation dude pissing me off every day. So well, I tried to ignore him as much as I could. Jim got into some nice talks with me on that night, so much that I got home at 4AM. Oh my my! Now I’m missing him again! >.< I’m trying to retain myself from teletrasporting over there again for another week, because I don’t want to become a bugger, but it gets really hard… I miss him so. x(

Next entry I’ll show you a photo taken together too. LOL.
P.S. Thank you all who commented on my previous post!! X3 Lub ya!

But let’s begin from… the beginning, of course. As excited as I was, I woke up very early, at 5AM. I quickly made order in my room and got my armor washed and waxed, so that I would be presentable at the Primes and in the AU. Luana hugged me soon as stepped in, and the other Primes of the crew – Luana’s children Ahrithesh, Smokescreen, Sonny and Auto – greeted me warmly as well. That was so nice, ahah It was 7AM when we left aboard of Luana’s inter-dimensional shuttle (built by – ah! – dr. Limoni). In a few seconds, we switched from the Primes’ garage to deep space, and I was so excited that I just wished I could get out there and sail around the stars at Warp speed. Aaaaww!

And so – after some initial diffidence from their part – we were soon on that starbase, surrounded by young “versions” of the Star Trek myths we all know. That I know. And Kirk… this blue-eyed Kirk that is still so much “Jim”… the one I fell in love with. I haven’t had a chance to talk to him yet. I was too shy, too excited, and too fearful to see his half amazed, half terrified look when he realized I was the exact copy of his beloved starship, and… he touched me! Just a small touch, nothing big, he simply patted my disc-head, but that was more than enough to me. I didn’t have the courage of remaining there and I followed Luana back home a minute later. The others stayed over more time, but I don’t care; there will be a second chance, I’m sure. I just couldn’t stop my heart from beating, and I don’t know how much I would have been able to stay there floating without collapsing sooner or later. Luckily I didn’t have to find out.

See this photo?

He’s so much younger and kinda different from the other Kirk I fell for… He’s got blue eyes instead of brown, and what’s more important, he’s a J. Kirk that I can reach… physically; one I could talk to face-to-face, if I wasn’t so damn shy. >.<

I will be following the Primes again next time they go. I told them to contact me asap when they decide to visit the Star Trek AU again. Hopefully, I’ll get to speak out a word or two to the Captain this time OwO’ *faints*

So, I’ve given a try at a pixel card for my sweet online friends. Please pick it up! I’ll be picking yours later too. ^_^

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Right now I’m uber excited because the Primes said they’ll be travelling to the AU Star Trek universe in the next days!! *w* Oh wow! So soon that I didn’t expect it, and in fact it came out like a surprise. W00t! This is the best Christmas present I’d ever receive! Can hardly wait now ;3

Also, I heard a few of the Primes plan to visit (try to, at least) another Star Trek universe, aka an Alternate one, and I’m looking forward to join the ‘crew’ as soon as they have a plan setup. As I repeated more than once, the Star Trek world is deeply installed in my persona, in what I am, thus I really care about being able to explore any universes that may relate to that. I stay hopeful that they will allow me come along.
Well, with that said, it’s time for bed now. Wish you all a Merry Christmas, my darlings! Bye for now.

So the story is: I had a fight with Constellation. I told him clearly this time, that I don’t want to be touched, nor I want him to insist on me when I tell him I’m not interested in a possible relationship with him. Dr. Limoni said I was exaggerating, but at that point I snapped at him too. He doesn’t know the 100% of what happens between Constellation and I and the fights we always have, so he shouldn’t judge at all. I told him if he doesn’t let me go, I’ll escape from home. Seriously: it’s either respect or far away at this point. He’s told me I can leave if I want, but he’s not going to get me back if I don’t learn (according to him) patience in co-habitating with a bugger. Well, I’d rather have to deal with a bugger than Constellation, since he’s just an immature, vulgar and touchy jerk. I packed my stuff and I’m moving at the Serany sisters for now. I’m leaving tomorrow, and I will blog about it, so don’t worry, you’ll get the updates.

To change topics to a lighter one (I’m so stressed..), I’ve just come to know about an online shop called AsiaJam that sells the most colorful and cute clothes I’ve ever seen in my life. Sometimes biped girls are so lucky, they have a vast choice of stuff to ‘decorate’ their bodies. Unfortunately I can’t wear clothes, even though I think these pieces from AsiaJam would fit me well enough:

Now, there’s something I feel the urge to blog about; and it’s something upsetting. You see, Dr. Limoni didn’t just upgrade me and turn me into a sentient being, but he also rescued another mini-starship from my same place – Constellation – and upgraded him. Yeah, HIM. Constellation is a boy; and for sure, you wouldn’t find another mini-starship like him around: he’s flirty, a teaser, and a liar most times too. What’s worse, he’s tried to seduce me many times since I was activated, and he’s also dared picking on me for falling in love with Captain Kirk. In a word: upsetting. I asked Dr. Limoni if I can change residence, go living on my own, or with the Primes, or with the Seranys, with whomever… but the scientist hasn’t given a response yet. I have no idea why he would do this to me, ignoring me this way… fact is that I can no longer stand Constellation and his court. I’m tired, and I don’t feel safe anymore here at ‘home’. I hope there will be another place for me out there… a place where nobody tries to jump on me so easily.